feeling sad.

So, Mr. Maddox is coming down with another cold. He is still awake, and I am in near panic mode that we will not be getting sleep again for a couple weeks. I am seriously trying not to freak out and cry and go mad. He just started sleeping through the night for the last few nights since his last cold. Oh for consistent sleep. I just want to feel "normal" again.

And then at the same time I am reminded this week how truly blessed I am and how I have SO much to be incredibly grateful for and that God has lavished His love on me.

On Monday I went to a wake of a co-worker, Patti. She was only 50 years old and had brain cancer. She died Friday night. Patti was our scheduler at work and was a very sweet woman. She left behind 3 children and several grandchildren who all adored her. Her husband had died a few years back.

When I called work on Monday to get information about Patti's wake, I was told that another co-worker had died suddenly on Sunday night. His name is Ernie and he was a very inspirational person. He had been paralyzed in an accident many years ago, but was a case/social worker and just an overall amazing person who would make you laugh everyday. He inspired many people and I always looked forward to running into him at work whenever I filled in.

It's wierd, because when I was working I interacted with Patti and Ernie several times during my work day, but now that I haven't been working, I haven't seen them very much, but I still miss them, because I know that next time I do go into work, they won't be there.

Then, today I visited the mother of a little boy (although he isn't so little anymore) who I used to work with. He is dying. It was wonderful to see her and him, and I was able to pray for the mom, which was a God thing. And this boy, he is an angel. You know how you meet people in your life and some of them sort of "shine" or "sparkle"? That is what he did. He has touched so many people in his life and still is. It's amazing to see how God uses people and how God blessed my life with this little guy.

So, overall, this week has been sad, and yet I am reminded of wonderful my life really is. The food allergies, lack of sleep, etc.. are annoying, are an inconvience, but overall, my life is rich and full and wonderful!

So, no pictures or silly stories of the kids...although there are plenty of them! And Maddox is STILL awake upstairs. I think I will go hold him, just because I can.