It's Going to be OK

God is amazing.

Today was a hard day for me. I was pretty nauseas all day just thinking about the feeding tube and how I was going to be putting it through Maddox's nose and down his throat into his tummy.

I have been praying about a toy to buy him so he'll have something to look forward to when the procedure is done. I have been leaning towards a certain toy, but it was expensive (for us) and really not worth the price, but it is something Maddox would love.

My parents said they would go in on it. I was so grateful, and yet the price of the toy was bugging me and I kept praying and asking if there was something else we could get him.

Today Maddox's speech therapist told me she saw the toy on sale at Walmart this past weekend. I had been to walmart this past weekend and didn't see it so I figured it had sold out.

All day the thought kept entering my mind to go to walmart and look for it. I finally did after 8:00pm tonight, and I found the toy for 50% off!! I also found one of those wooden shelves with the bins for 50% off (I've been praying for help to reorganize our home).

If God is going to take care of a toy for Maddox, I can rest and trust that He will take care of Maddox during the procedure. I am always so humbled and amazed when God does things like this. He cares about my anxiety and found a tangible way to let me know I don't have to worry, that I can trust Him and that Maddox is in His hands.

I am still nervous about it all, but I have a peace I didn't have before. It's going to be OK.